That had been the downside to returning, having to push that mindset back into place and ignoring his heart. He'd begun to want things, and yet this took everything away from him and he could not complain.

"Not too tired to talk to you." Demyx quipped back, because it was true, he'd give up on a lot of sleep to get this conversation. If he fell asleep now, he might find out he was only dreaming.

"It's...well I kind of am here too, but it's not like I have expectations or anything." He said, looking into the coffee cup before sipping it. He felt tired, wrung out, and the whole experience left him feeling very much like he did before. Kindness hadn't been the way of things and it chipped away at his self-esteem. Not that he had that much to begin with, and as the lowest ranking member with Luxord, he was ordered around like a servant.

The adventuring was by far the best part. The opportunity to explore new places, see new things, it satisfied his wanderlust like nothing else.

When Jed returned and cupped his cheek, he raised his eyes, looking at him.

"No...I mean I don't need to be. I don't even want to be."